Everything is a struggle. And would you enjoy it if it weren’t?
Deep discussions about life goals continue flow my way, sometimes from the friends I talk to online, sometimes from my business partner, and sometimes through my mom. I continue to realize that reaching is painful; it’s a glory-filled, exciting, scary pain in the ass.
Mom has sold her company, retaining vice-presidency, all her staff, and gaining a number of nice incentives, while removing the burden of being tied down. This opens up the possibilities for her to move out to Philly where the rest of my family has migrated, which is her eventual plan.
My buddy’s moving in with another friend of ours, away from Ann Arbor. Benefits: More finances available for our business. Drawbacks: No more easy access, since I seem to be deathly allergic to that house. He hates the “hipsters” of Ann Arbor, and the ghetto nature of our apartment complex. On the latter, I can hardly disagree; some girl conned him out of some cash just last night, and I believe the sour stench of pot floats through our hall every day. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve done my share, but god damn, people, don’t break the hall doors so your drug buyers don’t have to buzz to get in. As for the former – we’re almost never downtown, anyway.
I can’t think of anywhere in North America where I’d like to live. Of all the possibilities… none excite me. Maybe not having really seen any new cities in the past three years has blurred the possibilities. I yearn to explore, to find somewhere special instead of living where I landed… but where to go?
The two things that keep me here are the people I love (my family, those of you I’ve selected, one by one, and cherish) and the business. The business is portable, with effort, and the people are not.
And my business partner is even less excited by moving, these days. I can’t complain – he’s more motivated to work on the company than ever before. But instead of wanting to live in the excitement, he wants to… drive there. He’s happy with a suburban home, if not a suburban lifestyle.
It’s not necessary to make a point out of it, yet. It is a difference, though, that will have to be hashed our, one way or another.
We’ve completed the textual details of the web site, and now I simply need to create my ass off to get it entirely online. Our services are priced awesomely, our plans for acquiring and paying off equipment are practical (so long as we get customers), and we’ve got a firm idea for how to diversify in order to pick up clients during the lean months. That said, the first few clients are the hardest to acquire.
To make this reaching more difficult, my fundage is at an all-time low (which is a lie, because I’ve been in the red plenty of times and I’m juuuust barely squeaking by). I’ve been livin’ la vida loca for the past few weeks, and it’s really showing. Bleh. The Tax Man is going to be angry with me for not paying on time, but I’m going to tell him to take it up with Crain, who fucked up my withholding. Who in their right mind, living alone, would have two exemptions?
Still, as long as I have the gas to make it to and from work tomorrow, ain’t no thang. Though I have a suspicion that it’s the very reason I don’t have cable at home at the moment. Fuckin’ maintenance, that’s what personal finance is. You’d think I’d have something shiny to show for it, but no. No toys, just memories.
*hugs*
So much to think about. But I know you, of all people, will get it figured out. You’re good at that. :)
*hugs*
So much to think about. But I know you, of all people, will get it figured out. You’re good at that. :)
Feelin’ ya.
It’s a tough call babes. It’s hard to leave the peoples you love, and unless you have something pulling you somewhere in particular… it’s a weird aimless feeling.
You know where I be when you need to mumble outloud.
*shrug* It is a matter of time. If I leave for somewhere distant, most of my vacations will be back here, so my peeps don’t forget about me ;)
And thank you, Autumn. :)
*shrug* It is a matter of time. If I leave for somewhere distant, most of my vacations will be back here, so my peeps don’t forget about me ;)
And thank you, Autumn. :)
Feelin’ ya.
It’s a tough call babes. It’s hard to leave the peoples you love, and unless you have something pulling you somewhere in particular… it’s a weird aimless feeling.
You know where I be when you need to mumble outloud.
Well, if you want a break from north america, you could always apply to the JET program. If accepted, you become a teacher’s aid for japanese English class for year or more.
My friends from Illinois are in it right now, and are rather enjoying the change of pace, along with the fact that they meet and hang out with not only natives, but other JET people from around the globe.
I’ve heard of a number of english class programs. While I am quite versed in English, I think I’d rather take another route to my adventure. :)
I’ve heard of a number of english class programs. While I am quite versed in English, I think I’d rather take another route to my adventure. :)
Well, if you want a break from north america, you could always apply to the JET program. If accepted, you become a teacher’s aid for japanese English class for year or more.
My friends from Illinois are in it right now, and are rather enjoying the change of pace, along with the fact that they meet and hang out with not only natives, but other JET people from around the globe.
These are the lean times. One day when you look back, you’ll remember the feeling of true, early accomplishment. All of the struggles and joys will blend together with a satisfaction only the brave will ever know.
I’m not saying a thing you don’t inherently know and live. I’m just reminding you. Success isn’t for the weak of heart or the lazy. It takes courage and fortitude (intestinal & otherwise) and the ability to want the golden ring even when things look pretty blah.
I feel so much pride watching you make strides towards your goals. I know that I always will. It’s just how you are. I’m always impressed with how easily you roll with the punches.
Of course, I am glad, for purely selfish reasons, that you will be in SE Michigan for a time yet. After being denied for so long, I have some ground to make up and some toes to curl.
All very true – and thank you. As ever, decisions must be made, and sometimes, every choice comes bundled with loss. As before.
*leans* Be water, not stone. Flow around your obstacles, taking every crevice.
(No, that’s not a sexual pun. *grin*)
Thank you for always reminding me of who I am, and who I want to be.
All very true – and thank you. As ever, decisions must be made, and sometimes, every choice comes bundled with loss. As before.
*leans* Be water, not stone. Flow around your obstacles, taking every crevice.
(No, that’s not a sexual pun. *grin*)
Thank you for always reminding me of who I am, and who I want to be.
These are the lean times. One day when you look back, you’ll remember the feeling of true, early accomplishment. All of the struggles and joys will blend together with a satisfaction only the brave will ever know.
I’m not saying a thing you don’t inherently know and live. I’m just reminding you. Success isn’t for the weak of heart or the lazy. It takes courage and fortitude (intestinal & otherwise) and the ability to want the golden ring even when things look pretty blah.
I feel so much pride watching you make strides towards your goals. I know that I always will. It’s just how you are. I’m always impressed with how easily you roll with the punches.
Of course, I am glad, for purely selfish reasons, that you will be in SE Michigan for a time yet. After being denied for so long, I have some ground to make up and some toes to curl.
I read this! I have nothing helpful to say though, because I’m am money-tarded. :(
Thanks, Rikki. *hug* Reading is enough.
Thanks, Rikki. *hug* Reading is enough.
I read this! I have nothing helpful to say though, because I’m am money-tarded. :(
Austin, TX. *grin*
Too close to Bush’s home :D
Too close to Bush’s home :D
Austin, TX. *grin*
whaaaaaaaaa?
You’re not going to run away with a crippled girl to Prague after all? ;)
I’d totally do that :) We’d have to build a bunker in case war returns, but we could do that with all the money we saved on cheap food. :D
I’d totally do that :) We’d have to build a bunker in case war returns, but we could do that with all the money we saved on cheap food. :D
whaaaaaaaaa?
You’re not going to run away with a crippled girl to Prague after all? ;)
Unfortunately, I don’t know that I have great advice to offer. But Boston’s a great city–if you’re moving on, and haven’t looked at it, you should take a look!
Unfortunately, I don’t know that I have great advice to offer. But Boston’s a great city–if you’re moving on, and haven’t looked at it, you should take a look!
If you need some marketing expertise you can drop me a line. I would be happy do brainstorm some ideas with you. Hell if I could afford it I would be a client. I have no time to do web design right now…but alas I can’t even afford to keep my hosting service.
If you need some marketing expertise you can drop me a line. I would be happy do brainstorm some ideas with you. Hell if I could afford it I would be a client. I have no time to do web design right now…but alas I can’t even afford to keep my hosting service.
Lansing?
Full of lovely people. And crappy people. And generally isolated.
Isolated? How so?
Isolated? How so?
Full of lovely people. And crappy people. And generally isolated.
Lansing?
I only ever met you IRL a few times, but in those times you left quite an impression. I know my life is richer for having known you, and I’m honored that I get to read your journal. Even that small glimpse into the man that you are is special. You provoke me into thinking, and challenge me to question my beliefs to find out where they really come from. You are successful, and you have worked for it, and you inspire me. I just felt like getting all that out there.
LadyChess/Tina
Awww, thank you, Tina. I’m honestly really touched. I’m glad you’ve found some good things in me, and that I give you inspiration. *hugs*
Thank you. It helps.
Awww, thank you, Tina. I’m honestly really touched. I’m glad you’ve found some good things in me, and that I give you inspiration. *hugs*
Thank you. It helps.
I only ever met you IRL a few times, but in those times you left quite an impression. I know my life is richer for having known you, and I’m honored that I get to read your journal. Even that small glimpse into the man that you are is special. You provoke me into thinking, and challenge me to question my beliefs to find out where they really come from. You are successful, and you have worked for it, and you inspire me. I just felt like getting all that out there.
LadyChess/Tina