We all have a weakness / Some of ours are easy to identify
Today’s one of those days where you just feel mysteriously… vulnerable, I suppose. Nothing you can put your finger on, no “problem”, but still, you wake up in the morning just wanting to bare your soul to someone and get a little bit of comfort, cuddling and acceptance.
I had some social time tonight, but really, I felt a little too strange and ‘inside my head’ to make the most of it.
I get so conflicted at these times. I’m lonely, in this moment, but it’s much easier to be that person for someone, without judgment, than to allow yourself to break down and to trust that others will still see your strength, and provide the empathy you crave.
When did I stop trusting people to see ‘true’?
And of course I critique myself, with some dry amusement, because even as I see myself as whining, considering how generally lucky I am and how I’ve created my own life, I question whether saying “it’s probably hormones, heh” is pissing on myself to deflect attention (even my own). And then the meta-critique comes in … yeah, seriously overthinking. When’s bedtime, again?
EDIT: (1:30a) Better now. No, seriously. Man, I’m glad that’s over. Now, to sleep with me.
“one of those days where you just feel mysteriously… vulnerable.”
You’re not alone. Today essentially I just hid. I stepped outside once for a few minutes though, and I even talked to someone face to face. < grin >
It was a blah day, but everyone needs those once in a while.
*hugs* I totally know how you mean. I could have written that. Well, except you put it much better in clearer where people can understand it.