Yes indeed, I saw Harry Potter the other night. I enjoyed it fairly well, missed the parts that were missing, and otherwise thought it was worth my time and money.
I may have also told a jerk of a woman that she was a complete asshole. >_> <_< Still, she deserved to know – I’m not trying to start a fistfight, but I am trying to figure out my boundaries, and pretending not to see someone behave like an asshole in order not to be in conflict is, apparently, no longer something I want to do. *shrug*
I dropped my wife off at the airport so she could go visit her sister (doesn’t that sound so domestic?) and I miss her. I pick her up this evening, so there will be cuddles in my future!
While at dinner with some friends, I tried the grilled chicken wrap from BW3 with asian spice sauce on the side, and it was pretty damned good – might be a little skimpy on the chicken for the price, I’m not sure, but it seems like a pretty healthy choice for a place like that.
I just got back from a fabulous housewarming party for my buddy Scott, and it was great to play some new games and see old friends, as well as have some strongbow. I played a funky "clue on a train" game that was interesting, but super-complex for a group who’d been drinking, and quite a bit longer than I anticipated. Having to remember how many times a given time of day was called out (8 times, up to 3 cards) was a bit of a nightmare and didn’t exactly make sense for the story. I was amazed that I held my own with three correct guesses out of five!
The conversation was great at the end of the night – I was pleased to pull out a few chestnuts about traveling across the border – Most of my friends have heard those stories time and again. ;)
I’m in a pretty thoughtful mood, as happens this late at night when I’ve been listening to thoughtful music. I have multiple friends that seem to be just barely hanging on these days, and I wish so much that I could help them really get that everyone screws up, and the only thing for it is to try to do better. To love yourself, even with your mistakes, and to push yourself to be brave, because it is a way to care for yourself.
I know there’s no way to make someone really see that, but having been in that place in my life where nothing worked, where I thought I was a malfunctioning human being, where I was afraid every terrible thing ever said about me was true … it really hits me deep to see people I care about struggle.
I’m not sad or burdened by these things – it could easily be me, or anyone else in that place. It is amazing how many people put on "a successful face", hiding how totally fucked up they feel inside.
I am just wistful at being powerless to change the way someone’s mind works. There are valid, rational reasons to get up in the morning, but you can’t just hear them, you really do have to fall upon them yourself. It’s in us to do it, though, which is why you hear it over and over and over again in music right now – every single minute we spend not caring for ourselves is a choice that can be reversed, and frankly, every minute is a new chance to start fresh. It’s <I>hard</I>, really fucking hard, but that’s survival for you.
Anyway, for those folks in my life who feel like they’re circling the drain, I want to say that I’m thinking about you, I care, and there is good reason to hope and reach for something better.
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