Believe now is enough. Call yourself out. Justify less. Yield to peace.

•May 25, 2010 • 1 Comment

I was reading a post on my RSS called Letting Go of Attachment, from A to Zen by guest blogger Lori Deschene. It covered a number of vital life-habits that I think are really important to remember on a daily basis. I have a few friends that are struggling to find a place of happiness – I hope this article gives food for thought.

The elements on the full “list” all align mighty closely with my own ideals. I think it’s important to remember that, like Zen itself, finding ethics/behavior that makes sense for you isn’t an achievement (or the lack of, if you’re without). It’s a way of living, and we all stray, a little or a lot, from who we want to be.

The important thing is to keep trying.

A few excerpts:

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Believe now is enough. It’s true—tomorrow may not look the same as today, no matter how much you try to control it. A relationship might end. You might have to move. You’ll deal with those moments when they come. All you need right now is to appreciate and enjoy what you have. It’s enough.
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Call yourself out. Learn what it looks like to grasp at people, things, or circumstances so you can redirect your thoughts when they veer toward attachment. When you dwell on keeping, controlling, manipulating, or losing something instead of simply experiencing it.
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Define yourself in fluid terms. We are all constantly evolving and growing. Define yourself in terms that can withstand change. Defining yourself by possessions, roles, and relationships breeds attachment because loss entails losing not just what you have, but also who you are.
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Justify less. I can’t let him go—I’ll be miserable without him. I’d die if I lost her—she’s all that I have. These thoughts reinforce beliefs that are not fact, even if they feel like it. The only way to let go and feel less pain is to believe you’re strong enough to carry on if and when things change.
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Make now count. Instead of thinking of what you did or didn’t do, the type of person you were or weren’t, do something worthwhile now. Be someone worthwhile now. Take a class. Join a group. Help someone who needs it. Make today so full and meaningful there’s no room to dwell on yesterday.
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Narrate calmly. How we experience the world is largely a result of how we internalize it. Instead of telling yourself dramatic stories about the past—how hurt you were or how hard it was—challenge your emotions and focus on lessons learned. That’s all you really need from yesterday.
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Question your attachment. If you’re attached to a specific outcome—a dream job, the perfect relationship—you may be indulging an illusion about some day when everything will be lined up for happiness. No moment will ever be worthier of your joy than now because that’s all there ever is.
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Release the need to know. Life entails uncertainty, no matter how strong your intention. Obsessing about tomorrow wastes your life because there will always be a tomorrow on the horizon. There are no guarantees about how it will play out. Just know it hinges on how well you live today.
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Understand that pain is unavoidable. No matter how well you do everything on this list, or on your own short list for peace, you will lose things that matter and feel some level of pain. But it doesn’t have to be as bad as you think. As the saying goes, pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.
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Vocalize your feelings. Feel them, acknowledge them, express them, and then let them naturally transform. Even if you want to dwell in anger, sadness or frustration—especially if you feel like dwelling—save yourself the pain and commit to working through them.
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Yield to peace. The ultimate desire is to feel happy and peaceful. Even if you think you want to stay angry, what you really want is to be at peace with what happened or will happen. It takes a conscious choice. Make it.
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Parallel Kingdom

•May 22, 2010 • 1 Comment

Just for fun, today, I started playing a little free cellphone location-aware MMO called Parallel Kingdom (for Android and iPhone).

It’s a GPS-enabled game where you harvest food, attack creatures, join cities, and set down flags to mark your territory … and traveling with your phone is a useful way to gain new territory/provisions.

If anyone decides to check it out, use my referral code, PKYVS. It gets you a little starting gold, me a little extra food (which is the only thing you can purchase with actual money, if you’d rather do that than trade things for food).

It’s one of those games you can just turn off/on whenever you want. Someone might attack your flags/buildings, but they can’t kill your character while you’re offline. Fits my schedule of “I am way too busy except when I have nothing to do.”

So far, it’s pretty fun. I was in Ann Arbor earlier today, and was able to find a cave of crystals to mine while I was there. ;)

Whooboy.

•May 22, 2010 • 3 Comments

This past week has been super-intense. I’m glad it’s over. A week of cleaning, sorting, packing, lugging, pain, climbing, disposing, spackling, painting (sorta), planning, buying, emailing, emailing, emailing.

Lucy had her bachelorette party last night, which was by all accounts a lot of fun. Today, we went to a very small wedding in the park, which was very nice and sweet. Then we hustled to JF and picked up fabric for the backdrop I’ve been imagining, and Home Depot for the 1 1/2″ pipe to make the backdrop scaffold.

Interestingly, mom and her neighbor finished all the favors, which means at the work party tomorrow, which is at Melanie’s and starts at 11 am, we’ll be having peeps work on the centerpieces, work on a seating poster (and, crap, we forgot posterboard, so that’s an A.M. trip), and of course building the scaffold! Or if everything is done super fast, chilling out with ice cream, oreos, and grillins food.

All the small details are coming together. Monday night, we figure out the biggest detail. Then, maybe (maybe) we can relax! *laugh*

•May 22, 2010 • 11 Comments

I feel like I may have asked this before, years ago, but I don’t have any history of it that I see, so I’ll bring it up with you geniuses.

When I was a kid, I remember watching a series of episodes in school about what appeared to be children, perhaps after an apocalypse or in the future when no one is around, learning from some sort of AI/Library computer.

At least, I’m pretty sure I saw it while I was in school. So I watched it probably somewhere between 1984 and 1988, I’m guessing.

Any ideas?

This sort of thing is insanely hard to google.

Finally about to leave work.

•May 21, 2010 • Comments Off on Finally about to leave work.

I’m still sorting out what to do with my evening. I might see what I can find at Home Depot to “lego up” a backdrop holder for the wedding out of PVC. Anyone who has opinions on this should join me! :D

Also, my dearest woman is frittering our duckets away at MGM Grand tonight, along with the laydeez. Okay, I fully encouraged this, heh.

If you’re looking for a dinner companion (and you’re not too far from Plymouth, ahem), let us get together and cause mayhem.

Meanwhile, if you’re looking for something more meaty, Let’s talk about vaccines and autism, shall we?

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Big things!

•May 17, 2010 • 5 Comments

We would like to invite you to our Work Party on Sunday the 23rd! It will be T-minus one week from our wedding, and we will be grilling food and gettin’ stuff done at Melanie’s place.

We’re still working out the details of when and what we need done, but please drop me a note here or come to Melanie’s if you’d like to help us build things from PVC, make scrapbook pages, picking up wedding color material or prep tokens and such for the wedding.

Come meet my mom! Come meet Lucy Benson before she becomes Lucy Kennedy! Come save our asses from being up 20 hours a day from now until wedding-time! *winks*

*big hugs to you all*

•May 14, 2010 • 1 Comment

I adore my soon-to-be wife, and I am incredibly, incredibly excited to move in with her in ONE! DAY!

Have I mentioned that I find her forthright honesty with strangers to be kinda charming? Also, the wedding prep experience has been largely painless.

Steam cleaner?

•May 13, 2010 • Comments Off on Steam cleaner?

I seem to remember someone has a steam cleaner for carpets – that someone even suggested I could borrow it! Were you that person? And can I borrow it this weekend?

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